gonna be at herculeaneffort
Nothing there atm but yeah. 8D
Gonna make a new journal later and start over
Hate not being to articulate myself without sounding like an asshole
I'm such a fucking waste of space
Miss you guys.
also missing someone
knew I shouldn't have been drinking
I am very, very fucking tired.
You ever have one of those days where everything you do or have done feels like it was never enough?
Yeah. Today is awesome. :/
no more psych for me! apparently my brain is getting fixed.
I do not deserve the people I know because they are lovely and amazing and so many people I just wish I could pick up and hug. Just.
Thank you, guys. <3
And now I'm depressing the hell out of myself with music. Feels like I'm missing part of myself.
every time I look at myself, all I see is selfish.
It's starting to get annoying.
Post "Oops I acidentally your butt." and I'll give you five questions to answer.
o1. What is with your dubious obsession with posteriors? ~~Curious minds
I like big butts and I can not lie
all you other brother's can't deny
when a girl walks in with an itty bitty waist
and a round thing in your face you say
SHE ONLY HALFWAY MADE IT TO CENTAUR.
o2. What was the first fandom you ever produced fanwork for?
Oh fuck uh. Gundam wing! I wrote a fic where Relena got ztepped on. Because bitch shut up.
o3. Marry, Shag & Cliff exile to a life of lone wolf global adventuring and badassery? Isabela, Alastair, Varric.
Marry Isabela, alastair and varric.
Shag Isabela, alastair and varric.
Exile to a life of lone wold global adventuring and badassery Myself.
o4. What's the origins behind your LJ username?
Aha I don't know if you've ever seen Gundam Wing? So basically, Deathscythe was my favourite model and Duo was my favourite character, and he seemed to think he was Shinigami, the god of death. Or something. My tag online was Shinigami for a long time, but Severedscythe was what I came up with. Also, 's a teeny tiny buffy reference, apparently. I don't know about that, all I know is it's old and derpy from my gundamwing days and I've had it since I was uh. well, since 2002. A while
o5. How many hugs does it take to get to the centre of a Jess? ~~Curious minds
ALL OF THE HUGS. No, from you darling, it would only take one.
I just have the feeling that I'm doing everything horribly wrong.
I'm seeing things every time I close my eyes again
There’s things waiting in the shadows. I can’t turn my back on the bathroom when the lights are off. It’s full of mirrors. And there are things waiting in them. I turned off the lights outside and the bag full of plastic bags in the corner turned into a crouching thing until I looked directly at it. I can’t go into my room; there’s a gap behind my bedhead. I’m trying not to think about the gap behind the chair I’m sitting in, and I’m watching a tv show to distract myself.
I close my eyes and there are things waiting for me and I know it’s stupid and they’re not real but that doesn’t mean they go away and it doesn’t mean that they don’t wait to rip me apart.
Tropes fic meme: Below are some fandom cliches - pick one and give me a pairing (and some details if you want) and we'll see what I can come up with.
Each trope can only be picked once; pairings and fandoms can be re-used.
Preferred fandoms: X-Men: Assassin's Creed, Dragon Age Origins and Two, original character's of mine or ones I know, etc.
o4. huddling for warmth
o5. pretending to be married
o6. secretly a virgin
o9. forced to share a bed - love, and other socially acceptable emotions | the social network; eduardo/mark, pg.
1o. truth or dare
11. historical AU
13. apocalypse fic
14. telepathy - ceto-pariya-ñāṇa | bbc's sherlock; john, sherlock, pg.
15. high school/college AU
Fucking hell, I haven't been in this kind of pain for a while. Ouch motherfucker.